Crush: The Series (Ramz)

Code Name: Ramz
Age: 18
How tall?: 4 stars
How lean?: 3 stars
How fair skinned?: 3 stars

Ramz. The crazy, carefree, humorous classmate.

Yup Ramz is my classmate.

He is a guy with a really great sense of humor. And i like guys like those. The ones who could laugh at your jokes and laugh at his in return. He never fails to make me smile. He is also the first person i asked in the shop during my freshman years. I never knew he was gonna be my calssmate then.

Note: Our course major  involves a lot of cars and engines. So we call our major subject shop because it looks just like an auto shop.

His voice is so deep. He looks like he goes to the gym. Or used to go to the gym. But still, the body built is still there. If it isn't for his tummy, surely he'll get five stars from me lol. And his shoulders are so broad. And he likes to open up topics about cars which i am more than willing to talk about. And he is the same height as me. And he has pimples. But still, HOT HOT HOT.

We both joined the school organization where i met Pards. And he knows Pards, too.

As you know by now, he is a total jokester. And at some point, i don't really know if it's a joke or a serious matter coated with his humorous tone. I actually made a list that contains everything he said to me that teased me and got me thinking: is he joking or is he interested in me? I don't know. Maybe i'm just assuming things.
Whatever, here it goes:

1.) He said "I love you" to me.

 He did. It was in a room and one of my classmates was playing songs on his phone. And then this song came up and it's chorus is like saying that (the singer) loves the boy but her whole family is against it. And then the chorus came and he sang along with it.
(It is a song sung in my native language so this isn't really the actual lyrics to it so its gonna be translated to english).
The "I love you..." part began and instead of saying "but", he replaced it with my name. He sang out with eyes staring at me "I love you Ian". Holy shit. I just smiled at him and he smiled at me in return. But deep inside, i was leaping for joy.

2.) He almost kissed me.

It was one time after shop hours and me and my other classmate was buying food from the cafeteria.
Ramz went somewhere else to get a starter repaired or something so he missed the entire shop time. When they got back and they saw us, he went close to me and said
"I missed you Ian" and he got his lips closer to my cheek and i immediately put a distance between me and him. He laughed it off and i did to. If i didn't move away that time, he could've been my first kiss. Damn.

(Hey i'm a very conservative person,can't blame me)

3.) He presented me as his boyfriend in front of his highschool friends.

So it was going like this. We were walking around the city center side by side (can't remember the reason why we were there) and he saw his high school friends approaching. And as they were getting close he smiled to them and they smiled but i almost freaked out with what he said. When they were near enough with each other to have a conversation, he pointed at me and told loud enough for me to hear "Hey! He's my boyfriend" . Fuck shit.
I couldn't believe my ears then. And my heart just stopped for a minute. I spent the whole day thinking about that moment.

And those are some of the things he did that i rememered which really got me thinking.

As classmates, we've been through a lot together. Hell, we even crashed his motorcycle to a car. We were fine though, but the rear bumper of the car was fucked and he ended up paying for it while i was there at the side of the road looking at the car and computing for the damage done.

And it turned out that the owner goes to the same school as we. Bummer.

Well at least that was one memorable experience with him. My first ever motorcycle related accident. That would leave a mark.Pun intended.

And i think that he knows that i am a sexually confused guy. My best friends told me that when a straight guy sees a gay guy, he immediately knows. (But i still don't consider myself gay. I still have girl crushes but those ones aren't as huge as the ones i have for boys.)

One time, there's only the two of us so he opened up a topic. He told me that he was not pleased with one of our flamboyant gay classmate (we have two btw). And i asked him why and his answer was. "Because he's gay......ness level is just too much."

That statement got me thinking. He didn't say "Because he's gay". He specifically pin pointed that he doesn't like him being too flamboyant. Maybe he was thinking that if he told me that he doesn't like our classmate because he is gay, he would think that i would get offended because to him, i am gay, and that i would then imply that he doesn't like me because of that statement. All i'm trying to say is that he is very careful with his choice of words to prevent hurting me or something like that. So i respect him for that. Very few people think before they speak.
And needless to say. Even if i turn out to be gay, i wouldn't be acting like a girl. Sure i maybe a softie but never girly. And i would never cross dress and no operations whatsoever. I promise myself that. I'm just a boy who likes boys. That's it and nothing else.

Thing i don't like about ramz is that he is lazy. Yup massive turn off.
One day he would be at school and then the other he's gonna be M.I.A. And he is a very hard person to understand. One minute he's happy and then the other he's quiet as if thinking of something deep.

And he has a girlfriend. So back off Ian.

I respect other people's relationship and i wouldn't barge in one just to get the person i like. Just try putting yourself in the shoes of one them and somebody is trying to steal your guy away. What would you feel?

Exactly.

And i'm also afraid to admit that i have a crush on him because i don't know how he would react to it. Just being friends with him is enough for me. I value our friendship more. I wouldn't dare try say it to him. I don't like gambling especially if your relationship with that person would be hugely affected by it. I treasure my friends and i always try to keep that friendship alive.

-Ian