Code Name: Ramz
Age: 18
How tall?: 4 stars
How lean?: 3 stars
How fair skinned?: 3 stars
Ramz. The crazy, carefree, humorous classmate.
Yup Ramz is my classmate.
He is a guy with a really great sense of humor. And i like guys like those. The ones who could laugh at your jokes and laugh at his in return. He never fails to make me smile. He is also the first person i asked in the shop during my freshman years. I never knew he was gonna be my calssmate then.
Note: Our course major involves a lot of cars and engines. So we call our major subject shop because it looks just like an auto shop.
His voice is so deep. He looks like he goes to the gym. Or used to go to the gym. But still, the body built is still there. If it isn't for his tummy, surely he'll get five stars from me lol. And his shoulders are so broad. And he likes to open up topics about cars which i am more than willing to talk about. And he is the same height as me. And he has pimples. But still, HOT HOT HOT.
We both joined the school organization where i met Pards. And he knows Pards, too.
As you know by now, he is a total jokester. And at some point, i don't really know if it's a joke or a serious matter coated with his humorous tone. I actually made a list that contains everything he said to me that teased me and got me thinking: is he joking or is he interested in me? I don't know. Maybe i'm just assuming things.
Whatever, here it goes:
1.) He said "I love you" to me.
He did. It was in a room and one of my classmates was playing songs on his phone. And then this song came up and it's chorus is like saying that (the singer) loves the boy but her whole family is against it. And then the chorus came and he sang along with it.
(It is a song sung in my native language so this isn't really the actual lyrics to it so its gonna be translated to english).
The "I love you..." part began and instead of saying "but", he replaced it with my name. He sang out with eyes staring at me "I love you Ian". Holy shit. I just smiled at him and he smiled at me in return. But deep inside, i was leaping for joy.
2.) He almost kissed me.
It was one time after shop hours and me and my other classmate was buying food from the cafeteria.
Ramz went somewhere else to get a starter repaired or something so he missed the entire shop time. When they got back and they saw us, he went close to me and said
"I missed you Ian" and he got his lips closer to my cheek and i immediately put a distance between me and him. He laughed it off and i did to. If i didn't move away that time, he could've been my first kiss. Damn.
(Hey i'm a very conservative person,can't blame me)
3.) He presented me as his boyfriend in front of his highschool friends.
So it was going like this. We were walking around the city center side by side (can't remember the reason why we were there) and he saw his high school friends approaching. And as they were getting close he smiled to them and they smiled but i almost freaked out with what he said. When they were near enough with each other to have a conversation, he pointed at me and told loud enough for me to hear "Hey! He's my boyfriend" . Fuck shit.
I couldn't believe my ears then. And my heart just stopped for a minute. I spent the whole day thinking about that moment.
And those are some of the things he did that i rememered which really got me thinking.
As classmates, we've been through a lot together. Hell, we even crashed his motorcycle to a car. We were fine though, but the rear bumper of the car was fucked and he ended up paying for it while i was there at the side of the road looking at the car and computing for the damage done.
And it turned out that the owner goes to the same school as we. Bummer.
Well at least that was one memorable experience with him. My first ever motorcycle related accident. That would leave a mark.Pun intended.
And i think that he knows that i am a sexually confused guy. My best friends told me that when a straight guy sees a gay guy, he immediately knows. (But i still don't consider myself gay. I still have girl crushes but those ones aren't as huge as the ones i have for boys.)
One time, there's only the two of us so he opened up a topic. He told me that he was not pleased with one of our flamboyant gay classmate (we have two btw). And i asked him why and his answer was. "Because he's gay......ness level is just too much."
That statement got me thinking. He didn't say "Because he's gay". He specifically pin pointed that he doesn't like him being too flamboyant. Maybe he was thinking that if he told me that he doesn't like our classmate because he is gay, he would think that i would get offended because to him, i am gay, and that i would then imply that he doesn't like me because of that statement. All i'm trying to say is that he is very careful with his choice of words to prevent hurting me or something like that. So i respect him for that. Very few people think before they speak.
And needless to say. Even if i turn out to be gay, i wouldn't be acting like a girl. Sure i maybe a softie but never girly. And i would never cross dress and no operations whatsoever. I promise myself that. I'm just a boy who likes boys. That's it and nothing else.
Thing i don't like about ramz is that he is lazy. Yup massive turn off.
One day he would be at school and then the other he's gonna be M.I.A. And he is a very hard person to understand. One minute he's happy and then the other he's quiet as if thinking of something deep.
And he has a girlfriend. So back off Ian.
I respect other people's relationship and i wouldn't barge in one just to get the person i like. Just try putting yourself in the shoes of one them and somebody is trying to steal your guy away. What would you feel?
Exactly.
And i'm also afraid to admit that i have a crush on him because i don't know how he would react to it. Just being friends with him is enough for me. I value our friendship more. I wouldn't dare try say it to him. I don't like gambling especially if your relationship with that person would be hugely affected by it. I treasure my friends and i always try to keep that friendship alive.
-Ian
Tuesday, January 26, 2016
Sunday, January 24, 2016
Braces
As you know, i'm wearing braces. And i've had more than a couple of people that asked some questions regarding these metal madness inside my mouth like:
1.) " Does it hurt? "
2.) " How do you eat? "
3.) " Will it rust with sea water? "
4.) " How long would it be on? "
5.) " How do you brush your teeth? "
6.) " What if you kiss another person with braces on, would yours tangle up with theirs and you're stuck kissing each other forever?
7.) " Can you do oral sex without getting tangled up in your partner's pubes? "
And to answer those questions:
1. Only for a few days after adjustments. It doesn't hurt that much, just enough that eating crisps is gonna be a task.
2. With my mouth obviously.
3. Fuck no. I've been to the beach countless times now and no rust whatsoever. Stainless duh.
4. When my teeth decides that its utterly pointless arguing with each other and starts to closen up the gaps.
5. The same as before, except 10× more complicated.
6. What the fuck.
7. Ask somebody else. V-card holder here.
And some cons...
- Eating crisps without braces is bliss
Eating crisps with braces on is a task
- Can't bite into fruits like apples and chewy stuff. Slice them first.
- Cruchies are your worst enemies. Either chew on them carefully and slowly or lose brackets. Even worse, swallow one.
- Braces take 50% of what you eat. Especially for people like me who eats rice, it's just ugh.
- You have to brush your teeth after every meal. AFTER EVERY MEAL. So in my case, i brush about a thousand times a day. TOOTHPASTE GUZZLER.
- Can't smile while eating.
- Having your friend offer you your fave food but have to refuse because toothpicks are missing in action, is a total BUMMER.
- Some people tend to stare at your mouth while you are talking. If you don't want attention. Get boring rubber colors. Like clear ones or something. Idk.
- Saliva bombs everywhere. Or that's just me. Ew.
- Enunciation is affected. Saying "Thank You" could be heard as "Fuck you!"
- You basically look lika a cyborg when you smile.
So yeah that's that. Braces are good. And i do actually recommend them if your teeth are like mine which are err... "not aligned".
And it isn't my fault that i'm a gap toothed guy right?
Sure it comes with "some" niggles but it's all gonna be worth it when you smile one day and your teeth are aligned as fuck.
-Ian
1.) " Does it hurt? "
2.) " How do you eat? "
3.) " Will it rust with sea water? "
4.) " How long would it be on? "
5.) " How do you brush your teeth? "
6.) " What if you kiss another person with braces on, would yours tangle up with theirs and you're stuck kissing each other forever?
7.) " Can you do oral sex without getting tangled up in your partner's pubes? "
And to answer those questions:
1. Only for a few days after adjustments. It doesn't hurt that much, just enough that eating crisps is gonna be a task.
2. With my mouth obviously.
3. Fuck no. I've been to the beach countless times now and no rust whatsoever. Stainless duh.
4. When my teeth decides that its utterly pointless arguing with each other and starts to closen up the gaps.
5. The same as before, except 10× more complicated.
6. What the fuck.
7. Ask somebody else. V-card holder here.
And some cons...
- Eating crisps without braces is bliss
Eating crisps with braces on is a task
- Can't bite into fruits like apples and chewy stuff. Slice them first.
- Cruchies are your worst enemies. Either chew on them carefully and slowly or lose brackets. Even worse, swallow one.
- Braces take 50% of what you eat. Especially for people like me who eats rice, it's just ugh.
- You have to brush your teeth after every meal. AFTER EVERY MEAL. So in my case, i brush about a thousand times a day. TOOTHPASTE GUZZLER.
- Can't smile while eating.
- Having your friend offer you your fave food but have to refuse because toothpicks are missing in action, is a total BUMMER.
- Some people tend to stare at your mouth while you are talking. If you don't want attention. Get boring rubber colors. Like clear ones or something. Idk.
- Saliva bombs everywhere. Or that's just me. Ew.
- Enunciation is affected. Saying "Thank You" could be heard as "Fuck you!"
- You basically look lika a cyborg when you smile.
So yeah that's that. Braces are good. And i do actually recommend them if your teeth are like mine which are err... "not aligned".
And it isn't my fault that i'm a gap toothed guy right?
Sure it comes with "some" niggles but it's all gonna be worth it when you smile one day and your teeth are aligned as fuck.
-Ian
Wednesday, January 20, 2016
Crush: The Series (Pards)
Welcome to my new series!
Join me as i talk about all my crushes since i entered college.
Why i didn't include highschool you may ask? Simple. THERE'S TO MANY OF THEM.
Note: I have to give their nicknames only and not their full names for privacy reasons.
And the nicknames you are about to read are not their real nicknames. I only made them so no one in the school would know that i was talking about them. Just like a code name.
So let's start with my first college crush: Pards
Code name: Pards
Age: 18 or 19 idk
How lean?: 5 stars
How tall?: 5 stars
How fair skinned?: 5 stars
Meet Pards, the reason why i was motivated (insert cheerleader song) to attend my Saturday classes.
No, he's not my classmate. He is our group leader in an organization in my school that involves public service.
At first i was ignoring him because i didn't have my ideal type back then. In fact he is the reason why i have my ideal type: tall, fair skinned and lean. So credits to you Pards!
But when the time came that he was assigned to lead our group, boy did he really made me swoon! His frame, the way he walks, the way he talks, evrything is just so admirable. Even his mannerism where he blinks awkwardly ( don't know how to say it ) gets me everytime. And his smile, just the way he smiles makes me stare at him longer than i should.
I always remember hugging my pillow at night thinking it was him. I even went as far as intentionally nudging his shoulder so we would make body contact. But all i got was a weird stare from him, well at least i gazed into those hazel eyes of his. One memorable moment was when he sang and played a guitar. That's plus 100 points for me!! And at that time, he was wearing shorts, extremely short shorts. Almost a mile from the ground. And his legs was so smooth and white, i almost touched it. But i had a great sense of control so i didn't. So i just stared at him singing, plucking the strings and being blinded by his legs. It was paradise.
I also remember joining the chess competition because i learned that he is gonna be the coach. Even though an ostrich would beat me in three moves in that game. But he wasn't my coach and he coached somebody else so i was left there being beaten at the game everytime while i was staring at him like an ass.
The funny thing is that the whole time, i didn't know his name. I know, stupid me right? I can't ask anybody because i'm afraid they would think that i'm interested in him. I am, but i'm not ready to open myself up. So i was stuck with his surname where i got his code name.
And as far as i know, Pards is the only guy i cried for. It was a stupid one actually because i was at the dorm one evening, reading notes and an unregistered number sent me a message. It went on like this:
" Goodmorning, did you attend our activity last saturday? This is Pards "
My heart stopped, i ignored the fact that he said good morning during the evening and acted like a little kid who got their dream toy. We gave our cellphone numbers to our leaders for announcement purposes so i thought that this wasn't a prank, it was him! But i still quickly went downstairs to my dormmate to see if she was playing a prank on me ( she was the first person that knew about pards. We're close friends. And she also knew how crazy i was about him back then.) and she said no. I asked her boyfriend if he knew that number and he said no. So i screamed like a bitch and basked in the joy of the moment and then
Me: OMG OMG OMG PARDS TEXTED ME!!!! (Insert girly shout here)
Dorm mate: Just kidding, it was his (her boyfriend) number. *evil laughs*
I was crushed. Shattered and blown with the wind. I turned away, ran out of the dorm and walked till i got near a park where it was usually unoccupied and i cried. And i didn't talk to her for days.
I felt like a kid that got his dream toy and got it broken by some fucker.Heartbroken. Well, maybe she did thay because she qas annoyed from the fact that each sentence that came out from my mouth has Pards in it.
Anyway,I got his name during an awarding ceremony. Everyone of our leaders were called up the stage to get their awards. I waited for him to be called. And then it came. That name was announced loudly in public but i felt that it was being whispered to me personally. I couldn't be more happier that day.
When i got at the dorm later that day, i immediately searched for him on face book and i found his account and browsed every part of it. i was even happier. But it was all upside down a moment later. I saw a picture of him holding a baby. So I immediately thought that it might be his sibbling or somebody else's so i looked at the comment. And i wish i didn't. He himself stated that it was his baby. His offspring with the one he loves. I immediately wished i didn't knew his name by then. My heart was crushed and burned and left there to be swept away by the wind. And then it hit me. He wasn't just my crush. He was the first guy i loved. I cried again.
Seeing him once again the next saturday got me smiling and shaking my head at the same time. I told myself that he has a child and that i may never be a part of his life.
It took time for my feeling to go away and with my feelings, pards too, began to attend saturdays less and less until the time when he was no longer there. I didn't knew what happened, he just left.
I never knew the reason until one day, my classmate told me that he was forced to leave. I didn't knew if it was was real but i considered it as an answer to my questions.
But i learned the truth later, he went for his ojt. And graduated later that year.
Up to this day, i haven't seen him personally yet. And my friend request is yet to be confirmed by him.
-Ian
Join me as i talk about all my crushes since i entered college.
Why i didn't include highschool you may ask? Simple. THERE'S TO MANY OF THEM.
Note: I have to give their nicknames only and not their full names for privacy reasons.
And the nicknames you are about to read are not their real nicknames. I only made them so no one in the school would know that i was talking about them. Just like a code name.
So let's start with my first college crush: Pards
Code name: Pards
Age: 18 or 19 idk
How lean?: 5 stars
How tall?: 5 stars
How fair skinned?: 5 stars
Meet Pards, the reason why i was motivated (insert cheerleader song) to attend my Saturday classes.
No, he's not my classmate. He is our group leader in an organization in my school that involves public service.
At first i was ignoring him because i didn't have my ideal type back then. In fact he is the reason why i have my ideal type: tall, fair skinned and lean. So credits to you Pards!
But when the time came that he was assigned to lead our group, boy did he really made me swoon! His frame, the way he walks, the way he talks, evrything is just so admirable. Even his mannerism where he blinks awkwardly ( don't know how to say it ) gets me everytime. And his smile, just the way he smiles makes me stare at him longer than i should.
I always remember hugging my pillow at night thinking it was him. I even went as far as intentionally nudging his shoulder so we would make body contact. But all i got was a weird stare from him, well at least i gazed into those hazel eyes of his. One memorable moment was when he sang and played a guitar. That's plus 100 points for me!! And at that time, he was wearing shorts, extremely short shorts. Almost a mile from the ground. And his legs was so smooth and white, i almost touched it. But i had a great sense of control so i didn't. So i just stared at him singing, plucking the strings and being blinded by his legs. It was paradise.
I also remember joining the chess competition because i learned that he is gonna be the coach. Even though an ostrich would beat me in three moves in that game. But he wasn't my coach and he coached somebody else so i was left there being beaten at the game everytime while i was staring at him like an ass.
The funny thing is that the whole time, i didn't know his name. I know, stupid me right? I can't ask anybody because i'm afraid they would think that i'm interested in him. I am, but i'm not ready to open myself up. So i was stuck with his surname where i got his code name.
And as far as i know, Pards is the only guy i cried for. It was a stupid one actually because i was at the dorm one evening, reading notes and an unregistered number sent me a message. It went on like this:
" Goodmorning, did you attend our activity last saturday? This is Pards "
My heart stopped, i ignored the fact that he said good morning during the evening and acted like a little kid who got their dream toy. We gave our cellphone numbers to our leaders for announcement purposes so i thought that this wasn't a prank, it was him! But i still quickly went downstairs to my dormmate to see if she was playing a prank on me ( she was the first person that knew about pards. We're close friends. And she also knew how crazy i was about him back then.) and she said no. I asked her boyfriend if he knew that number and he said no. So i screamed like a bitch and basked in the joy of the moment and then
Me: OMG OMG OMG PARDS TEXTED ME!!!! (Insert girly shout here)
Dorm mate: Just kidding, it was his (her boyfriend) number. *evil laughs*
I was crushed. Shattered and blown with the wind. I turned away, ran out of the dorm and walked till i got near a park where it was usually unoccupied and i cried. And i didn't talk to her for days.
I felt like a kid that got his dream toy and got it broken by some fucker.Heartbroken. Well, maybe she did thay because she qas annoyed from the fact that each sentence that came out from my mouth has Pards in it.
Anyway,I got his name during an awarding ceremony. Everyone of our leaders were called up the stage to get their awards. I waited for him to be called. And then it came. That name was announced loudly in public but i felt that it was being whispered to me personally. I couldn't be more happier that day.
When i got at the dorm later that day, i immediately searched for him on face book and i found his account and browsed every part of it. i was even happier. But it was all upside down a moment later. I saw a picture of him holding a baby. So I immediately thought that it might be his sibbling or somebody else's so i looked at the comment. And i wish i didn't. He himself stated that it was his baby. His offspring with the one he loves. I immediately wished i didn't knew his name by then. My heart was crushed and burned and left there to be swept away by the wind. And then it hit me. He wasn't just my crush. He was the first guy i loved. I cried again.
Seeing him once again the next saturday got me smiling and shaking my head at the same time. I told myself that he has a child and that i may never be a part of his life.
It took time for my feeling to go away and with my feelings, pards too, began to attend saturdays less and less until the time when he was no longer there. I didn't knew what happened, he just left.
I never knew the reason until one day, my classmate told me that he was forced to leave. I didn't knew if it was was real but i considered it as an answer to my questions.
But i learned the truth later, he went for his ojt. And graduated later that year.
Up to this day, i haven't seen him personally yet. And my friend request is yet to be confirmed by him.
-Ian
Tuesday, January 19, 2016
I made this blog because.......
Back in high school our teacher required us to make a diary and submit them before our final exams. So at first i was really unhappy because i didn't like the idea of writing down what happened with me the entire day in a notebook everyday for the entire schoolyear. And to top it off when you are writing a diary, you can't help but pour it all down. All the emotions the drama the stress, all in that notebook. Plus a diary should be kept private right? So it would completely defeat the purpose. And then our teacher would read ALL OF IT. So i wasn't entirely thrilled with the idea.
And then we began writing the diaries and i felt this weird thing. It's like i want to write more but my hands are too tired to encrypt more words into that piece of blank paper waiting to be filled. My head was filled with ideas to write. I don't care if people would read it, i just want to write more. That's the point when i really appreciated writing, that blank paper does something a person can't do; it would be willing to accept all your shit and never give a damn. I was so attached to writing that at one time i was crying (idk what happened then, some random shit maybe) i grabbed my notebook (diary) and i think i wrote every bad word i knew. And when i was done, the paper was like "You done with your shit you emotional cunt?" Then i was "No you fucktard!" And then the paper was like "Fine, go ahead, fill me with your shit you twat."
And then we passed our diaries and somehow my diary got its way into the hands of the school publication and asked the editor-in-charge (my classmate)for me to join the club. So i was extremely overwhelemed that my irrelevant ass got known so i said yes and i wrote a couple of feature articles for the publication. Heck i even joined a competition once but failed miserably due to the lack of experience and guts and brain cells. But i enjoyed every part of it. Made me love writing even more.
After that i really wanted to make a blog but i was like "Ugh just write on a damn paper". So i didn't, well not until now.
But the thing that really pushed me aside from my love of writing is that i found Camps blog a few moments ago so i hope you're reading this Camps 143! Lol. I have a crush on a muddafaking blogger too! But unfortunately, his first and only blog was 4... FOUR years ago. That's ages ago. Well what ever. As long as i'm writing (typing) i'm happy. Cheers!
-Ian
What to expect from this blog? And random facts about myself
Okay so to clarify things, i would mostly post things about my encountered situations that is too much to forget, it would be something that made me exteremely happy or somethibg that pissed me off ,so basically, this is an online diary .
And also expect lots of posts about people that i really do admire (crush. Lol)
I would try to post things as frequent as i can and not let this blog go stagnant for a long while. I hate making others wait on me and i also hate people making me wait.
So that's about it, and now, 10 random things about me:
1. I don't like spiders or any sort of creepy crawlies
2. I wear ortho braces and they do hurt. Not so much but they hurt enough that you can't eat even a banana. A SIMPLE SOFT BANANA.
3. I'm a college student.
4. I'm a softy but i love cars and i can drive stick shifts. But i prefer automatics because lazy me doesn't want to change gears and inclines plus novice drivers plus stick shift plus bumper to bumper traffic usually doesn't end well. Either fuck up the clutch or hit the car behind you. Your choice.
5. I have a massive crush on a guys at school. I call him Camps because of his surname. It's been going on for a month now. The face he makes while he drives just makes me wanna go swoon LOL.
6. My favorite fanfic is "Twist and Shout", a Destiel fanfic and that shit is the best. Made me cry at 6 am in the morning and made listening to Elvis's song a torture. Take my hand, take my whole life to but i can't help falling in love with you *sobs horribly*
7. I love sweet and soft things so naturally, marshmallows and gummies are for me.
8. I deal guy is tall, fair skinned and lean.
(Camps isn't tall though. I'm 3 inches taller than him i think.)
9. Math and Physics hate me but i try to love them as much as i can but we are just not meant to be *cries*
10. I still have my v-card.lol.
That's all for now. Bye!
And also expect lots of posts about people that i really do admire (crush. Lol)
I would try to post things as frequent as i can and not let this blog go stagnant for a long while. I hate making others wait on me and i also hate people making me wait.
So that's about it, and now, 10 random things about me:
1. I don't like spiders or any sort of creepy crawlies
2. I wear ortho braces and they do hurt. Not so much but they hurt enough that you can't eat even a banana. A SIMPLE SOFT BANANA.
3. I'm a college student.
4. I'm a softy but i love cars and i can drive stick shifts. But i prefer automatics because lazy me doesn't want to change gears and inclines plus novice drivers plus stick shift plus bumper to bumper traffic usually doesn't end well. Either fuck up the clutch or hit the car behind you. Your choice.
5. I have a massive crush on a guys at school. I call him Camps because of his surname. It's been going on for a month now. The face he makes while he drives just makes me wanna go swoon LOL.
6. My favorite fanfic is "Twist and Shout", a Destiel fanfic and that shit is the best. Made me cry at 6 am in the morning and made listening to Elvis's song a torture. Take my hand, take my whole life to but i can't help falling in love with you *sobs horribly*
7. I love sweet and soft things so naturally, marshmallows and gummies are for me.
8. I deal guy is tall, fair skinned and lean.
(Camps isn't tall though. I'm 3 inches taller than him i think.)
9. Math and Physics hate me but i try to love them as much as i can but we are just not meant to be *cries*
10. I still have my v-card.lol.
That's all for now. Bye!
Me. The Person.
So let's start this off with a short intro. But this is Ian so "short" to me is a 500 word paragraph. Just kidding!
Here it goes!
My name is Ian, a 17 year old asian. Yup thats everything you are going to know about me... now. You'll get a little glimpse in my life, possibly more infos, as i post more of these in the future. Have fun reading!
Here it goes!
My name is Ian, a 17 year old asian. Yup thats everything you are going to know about me... now. You'll get a little glimpse in my life, possibly more infos, as i post more of these in the future. Have fun reading!
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